t’s quite some time now that I post anything. That might be because of the lack of new ideas in my damn mind. How can I think of some good and creative topics since all the time my mind keeps wandering in the unproductive things around. But finally, I have a new idea. B)
I decided to write a letter to my Past Self and will tell him about the new things that he will encounter in his future and by my experience tell him the things he should do and the things he should not, to make sure a good future. I hope it will be much better than mine is. While I don’t normally believe in talking about changing the past to make the present better, I thought it will be a good writing exercise. So here it goes…
Dear Past Self,
I know you have a long list of things that you want to do in your life. You have one for each day, week, month and even a year. And at last you have a big goal in front of you, which is very important to you than any other thing in your To-Do list.
I can understand how much this list mean to you. And yes I know there is feeling of great inner happiness and personal accomplishments when you complete any of the item of this list. There is always a feeling of pride whenever you set up a goal for yourself and complete it, that too on time.
You always believe yourself to be the most mature, cool, calm and religious person in the whole universe. You always think that your perception to every thing is right and more accurate than others, be it the political view, religious view, view on nature, or any other random view. You only care for those who care for you. You always think that you are the most original person you have ever seen. Original in the sense that you don’t fake or show up. I am not writing this, just to prove you wrong in front of whole world. I know you are not always wrong and I can proudly say that sometimes you are right too. And that is good enough because being a human, such small faults are always admissible.
You always want to do things in an orderly fashion according to their priorities. Because you think if something is organised in that fashion, it can be done. Not only can it be done, it can be done on time. According to you, you control your life to an extent, you have the the power of self-mastery, you have the talent or skills to control your life’s event and the things which you can not control, you think it is the God’s will or destiny. You always try to find patterns in this chaotic world and relate them to your life.
But one day, you will begin to wonder why you crave so much order in your life, why you always wanted to conquer the world, to prove your abilities to the world, to show the people around you that I am not a child anymore; take me more seriously. You will come to realize that there is a growing discontentment developing inside you. You will think while spending your energy and time to complete your To-Do list, your whole life passes by. You will start thinking when was the last time I decided to go to some adventure trip or to do some fun. When was the last time you just sat idle thinking nothing and enjoy the scoop of your favorite ice-cream at the most peaceful corner of your home.
One day, you will even quit a secure job in an industry you have been obsessed with since childhood. For once you will have no plans except to live life one day at a time. You will realize that it’s not about selecting the right career path or about making your dreams come true, it’s the process of actually doing that fulfills and excites you. Despite your dream to grasp the whole world in your hands and to know every thing about it, you would want to run away from it.
I advice you to live a life of ‘Dreams’ and not of the ‘Lists’. Don’t repeat the same mistakes that I did and I hope you will come up with a better me.
Sincerely,
Your Future Self
